Redemption

[TiniWini]

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Redemption
By : purplicious
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I lie on the floor with my head on the cold, white tile, my senses
numbed by the pain I felt.. Numbed by the very thing I most
dreaded to do in my life.. Numbed because of what he did to me..

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This night was cold, dark, and rainy.. I was all alone.. My parents’ on vacation and my siblings all asleep.. I needed someone to hold me close, to hold me tight, and to make me feel loved..

I picked up the phone and called my guy, Joe.. I told him I needed some company for dinner and for the rest of the night.. He gladly obliged and said he was coming soon..

15 long minutes later, he arrived.. We watched a movie then I cooked him dinner.. I did that for the guy who keeps me company when I most need it.. He thanked me for such a wonderful meal.. And yet he asked for “more”..

We go into my room so I could give him his just desserts he was asking for since dinner time.. It was rough but pleasant.. He came twice.. I felt like I came for around a million times.. I felt like I had the most pleasurable experience that night..

Then it struck me.. 2 hours into it.. I push him away.. Away from me.. Away from the warmth we both enjoyed and took advantage of.. “I need to go to the loo..”

I went to the loo and just sat there.. On the cold, white tile.. I started to cry.. Every night this would happen.. Tears would just run down my cheek uncontrollably.. Every time we’d have an experience like this.. This happens.. Every time we’d do something like this.. It isn’t really much fulfilling anymore the more we do this..

The tears fell down my cheek as I silently flush my emotions out..

Suddenly, 2 knocks were heard..

“Angela? You ok?”
“Yea..”, I lied.. “Sorta..”
“That’s nice.. Hey.. I hafta go..”
“Wait!! Joe!!”, I yelled as I ran after him towards the front door when it slammed shut..

It was too late.. He left me once again.. Again he used me for his own selfish pleasure.. Again I let him go coz I love him so much.. I love him coz he loves me too.. Or so I thought he did..

I went back to the loo and cried once more.. I cried even more this time.. Realizing that he was gone and I was left alone once again.. I cried till my tear ducts probably got inflamed due to excessive crying.. I cried till I couldn’t cry anymore.. I cried till I couldn’t take it anymore..

It was then I met Mr. Pink Cutter..

-click click click click!!-

I made a 5-inch slice on my wrist without hesitation.. Slowly but surely, I thought.. Without hesitation at all.. I made yet another slice.. It was much shorter.. But it hurt more.. Seems to be like I hit a vein or two..

A smile made its way to my face.. A small, grimacing smile.. Excellent, I thought, as I got hold of the alcohol bottle, removed the cap, and squeezing the bottle as hard as I can, making its contents squirt towards my arm’s direction..

The next thing I knew, my arm was burning in pain.. I was laughing my booty off as my punctured skin reacted to the harsh effect of the alcohol.. It was painful.. But not as painful as what he did to me.. The pain took over me completely.. I was in heaven.. Maybe this is the redemption people kept talking about in the prayer meetings at my church.. Maybe this is the redemption I needed..

The blood flowed on the cold white tile until I could no longer keep myself up.. I lost all control in my body.. All control but my emotions and my feelings.. My body started shutting down due to the massive loss of blood I sustained..

I collapsed on the floor with a grin plastered on my face.. This is definitely going to be a night to be remembered.. By everyone.. By everyone who failed to acknowledge my very existence..

As much as I hate clichés.. “Goodbye, cruel world!!”, I screamed, as I felt my eyelids growing heavier and heavier by the second.. Nice to have known you all..

KThnxBye!!

==FIN==

[chuna]

Ang galing mo talaga sa girl's point of view! *praise-praise* XD

Aww, she's suicidal...

[TiniWini]

Thanks!! It's this "talent" I have that makes me think like a girl when and where I want to.. Ahahaha!!

Uhm.. What's your name again? ;D

[chuna]

Joanne. XD

[AJ the Ass Slayer]

Tis a good story ^^

OMG...you used my name O.O And I call the bathroom the loo too O.O

...woot...O.O

[TiniWini]

^ Well.. I really REALLY put your name.. I was thinking whether or not to put M's name as the guy's name but that would really sound so obvious, now would it?

I'm currently writing the next chapter..

[AJ the Ass Slayer]

Wha--??O.O There's a next chapter?? I thought the girl was dead na XD

[TiniWini]

Basta..

[tofiluk]

I'm excited for the next chapter.

[Chosen. Of. Chaos.†]

This story reminds me of something...

And it's soo good! T_T

Dude, you HAVE to post the next chapter. Pronto.

Anyway, I don't know why but...a lot of men these days take women for granted. And some girls just like it that why...*sighs* I wonder what will happen next. I mean, she just died right?

Maybe Joe would return and see her sprawled on the floor, limp.

Or her parents would arrive a tad earlier and watch in horror as their daughter slips into death's waiting arms.

Or maybe she'd wake up in a hospital. Turns out someone saved her.

Aah, but it is not my place to continue your story. Please don't make me wait longer! T_T

[TiniWini]

Neh.. I changed my mind.. The chapter I wrote following this made the whole thing lose its momentum.. Ahahaha!!

Kasi nga.. Ang dapat na susunod na chapter..

Andrea woke up in a hospital room, IV on hand.. She eventually caught wind that Joe jumped off the 24th floor of his condo when he found out about Drea's "suicide attempt".. Apparently, Drea receives a letter from Joe to her..

"Andrea,

If ever you're still alive and kicking, by the time you read this letter, I would most probably be gone.. I'm sorry for using you yadda yadda"

Basta mahaba-haba.. Wahahaha!! She then somehow grabbed a gun and blasted her brains out.. LOL!!

[tofiluk]

HAHAAHA~ That made me laugh.

[TiniWini]

^ See what I mean? It loses its momentum as an angst-filled story..

[chuna]

XD that gun part was kinda...funny. But I'll feel bad for her if that shot didn't kill her or someone else saves her. Saving someone from suicide feels ... embarassing. XD

[Chosen. Of. Chaos.†]

Aw...

At least one of my guesses are right! She DID wake up in a hospital! LOL

[TiniWini]

Yea.. Well.. I guess so.. LOL..

[tofiluk]

purplicious said:

^ See what I mean? It loses its momentum as an angst-filled story..

Well... only if you put it that way. The phrase 'blast her brains out' kinda distracted me.